It’s okay. It’s just a sad topic, but sometimes it’s good to talk about the sad stuff. I can’t do it to often, because I don’t want to upset any of my friends.
It makes me sad to think that he’s missed our wedding and our babies lives. He should have been Kurt’s best man. He was suppose to be there to give us the perfect bachelor party. Kurt and I missed watching him try to dance and teasing him about it later. He should have been there to give Coop a run for his money on most embarrassing best man speech. There shouldn’t have been a empty seat between Kurt and Elliott.
Gosh, he used to tell us about all the things we were going to do with our respective children. He had all these family vacations planned out. Finn and Kurt would always argue about them. It was really cute watching Finn compromise that we would not be sleeping in a ‘dirty tent’, while Kurt compromised that we could stay in cabins as long as we had running water and bathroom. They really fell into their roles of brothers so easily. I miss seeing that side of Kurt, and that look of exasperation and love he got when it came to Finn. Only Finn brought that side of him out. It was one of my favorite sides of Finn as well. Once Finn accepted your spot in his life, he treated you like family. I think he knew Kurt and I were forever before even I did.
Do you want to know a secret? I haven’t even told Kurt, because I don’t want him to be sad and I know it doesn’t fit in with his beliefs. But I think Finn is the triplets guardian angel. They were conceived only a few months after his passing, and it would be just like Finn to be watching over them from heaven…It might just be wishful thinking on my part, but I think Uncle Finn would want to see the babies grow up even if he can’t be with them.
As a side note, thank you for not bringing this up with Kurt. It might seem a little overprotective, but I don’t want to see him needlessly upset.