Is it bad if I didn’t even realize that I look different? I know I felt different after Finn passed away but honestly, I was just going through the motions to even care. But I guess I could see how I could’ve lost “my spark”. And of course, I’m at my happiest when I’m with you and the babies! Our little family is the only thing I’m sure of at the moment. I’m still trying to figure out if my future is on the runway or on Broadway but I know either way, I have you, Spencer, Hepburn, and Tracey in my corner. And you’re right about all four of you helping me heal. I know I shouldn’t admit this but when Finn died, I felt… like I would never be 100% myself again. I knew I wasn’t true because I still had you and words cannot explain how much having you in my life has saved me but it was hard. But seeing our babies’ face every single day smiling up at me, makes me realize how life goes on and how truly great it could be. Being married to you and being a dad does feel natural to me. It’s kinda crazy; a good crazy! I mean, most of the time I’m not sure what I’m doing but I honestly think that most new parents are unsure too. So I try not to worry about it.
I don’t know, Blaine. A part of me is still very hurt. But I would just be proving Sam right if I was the reason you didn’t talk to him. So, if you want to make peace with him, I’ll understand. I just… I don’t want him to come into our home and start attacking me again.
I don’t think very many people did notice, sweetheart. Your dad and I were the only ones I’ve ever discussed it. He was convinced that it would start come back once we were married because we were starting a new life together, but I’m glad the triplets were in such a hurry to be born. I might still be terrified for them, but every worry is worth that smile on your beautiful face when we’re rocking them back to sleep at 4 am. As far as being unsure of what you want to do, we all support you, Kurt. Your dad, Carole, Me, Elliott, heck even Santana and Dani want to see you lighting up Broadway or see your designs at Fashion Week!
No, Kurt. I would never let him do that. I’ve already had a conversation with him telling him he needed to apologize to you, befor I even let him get a glimpse of the babies. I’m not going to make peace with him at the expense of you, sweetheart. You are the love of my life, Kurt and I don’t care who it is, I’m always going to take your side. I’m just suggesting that maybe we… sit down and talk everything out? Maybe see if Sam’s just being rude, or if there is an underlying issue going on. As far I can remember he wasn’t being like this to you before I told him I wasn’t moving in with him. But if you don’t want to, I won’t push the issue. You are my number 1 concern…well number 4, because you can take care of yourself and the babies can’t right now. But do you get what I mean, Kurt? I can live without seeing Sam, if that’s really what you want. But I could never live with myself if I was the reason you stopped smiling.
I’m glad that Carole was able to get a picture, too. I was hoping to get one of me and you with the triplets but I could tell that they were excited to stay still for a picture.
It’s funny that you say that because my dad kinda told me the same thing when he saw me. He said I looked like I was five years old again and getting ready for the Christmas play. But is it weird that I don’t feel like twenty? A lot of stuff has happened this year and I feel like it matured me. And I feel like it did the same for you. You’re nineteen and I can’t help but feel like I aged you, too. Honey, you had to grow up a lot this year and I’m not just talking about becoming a father. You got me threw Finn’s death and you had to be strong for the both of us. And then you had to deal with being pregnant at McKinley. And if that wasn’t enough, you had to carry triplets! Blaine, I am amazed by, how after everything life threw you this year, you never faltered. I just want you to know how lucky and blessed I feel to have you as my partner and husband. And I know without a doubt that you were born to be an amazing daddy. I overheard you talking to your mom the other day and I can tell you that you, my love, are on the same level as my dad.
Blaine Hummel-Anderson is the next generation’s Burt Hummel.
I wouldn’t say you look that young, sweetheart…Maybe like you did in the weeks after our engagement, but before Finn. You’re amazing spark is coming back to your beautiful face. This last year we’ve both been to hell and back. From my horrible mistake, to your dad’s health, what happened with Finn, to our fallout with Rachel it’s a wonder that we’ve all been able to bring it back. You work at Vogue.com, you’re a star student at Nyada and yet that spark only comes out when you’re with our little family. You just amaze Kurt, with the way you love us. I know no one can replace Finn, but I think the babies are helping to heal that sadness in your heart that you think no one notices. And I just love watching you bond with them. If anyone is like your dad, it’s you sweetheart. The babies adore you,and you’re so amazing with them. The way you got Cece to stop screaming yesterday? She was inconsolable for almost an hour and then you took her and she was asleep within minutes. You’re a natural, Kurt.
And you’re right that we grew up a lot this year and I’m so glad we did. But I’m beginning to wonder if…Do you think we might have been too harsh on Sam? I know he’s being unreasonable, but wasn’t this what he was taking about sweetheart? I think in our haste to grow up, we might have left a few of our friends behind. And while what he said about you was completely uncalled for, maybe he just upset that we grew up without him?
While most dads dress up as Santa for their children, I’m thinking I’m going to be unique and dress as ‘Elf on a Shelf’. I know the triplets are way too young to even comprehend what’s going on but I look forward to when they’re old enough to grasp the concept of Christmas and Santa Claus!
You’re so adorable, sweetheart! I’m glad you got a picture before the babies got to you. As much as it’s cute to see Hepburn trying to suck on the ball of the hat and Spencer playing with the little elf, it’s nice to see how it was suppose to look. You look younger in this picture too. Just seeing you and how good you are with the babies, it’s hard to believe you just turned 20 in May. It’s amazing how much can change in less than a year.
There’s nothing to be sorry about. You’re right, I did idolize Finn and while it was a little silly, it did kinda allow me to form a real bond with him. He became my friend and he was someone who understood how it felt to have one parent.
Oh honey, nothing’s as tight as those jeans! The only reason I wore those on our honeymoon was because I knew you were gonna rip them off me as soon as you saw me in them. But the tightness I was talking about wasn’t the shorts. I was talking about the shirt. I mean, I am in better shape than I was back then, muscle-wise. So, I’m guessing that it’s gonna really tight across my chest and around my biceps.
And I’m glad you had that sweetie. Seeing the two of you talking about your mom or his dad really gave me perspective. I really loved watching you bond with him, even if it was something I didn’t fully understand.
I knew it was a little suspicious that I’d never seen those jeans before in my life! Kurt Hummel-Anderson, you little minx! We almost missed seeing the Harry Potter exhibit because of those jeans. Not that I regret it for one second…that was some mind blowing sex, even if I was still 7 months pregnant…Gosh, Kurt the things I want to do you! I can’t seem to get the thought of deciding if my innocent boy scout has earned his personal fitness badge out of my head. Do you think maybe we could…not exactly ignore doctor’s orders…but bend them?
I, uh… I can explain! It’s actually a funny story… Obviously, this was before we became brothers and I’m not sure who’s idea it was to take the picture… I can’t believe you found this picture! I’m so embarrassed!
Okay, so my little crush I told you I had Finn was more like a huge crush. And thankfully, both Finn and I were able to look past that in the past couple of years to become real brothers. And to answer your question, I’m pretty sure that boy scout uniform is in my box of costumes. Although, since I was sixteen in this picture, the uniform will probably fit a lot more tighter now ;)
I can see that, sweetheart. I don’t think of seen that look of idolization on your face since before I drunk kissed Rachel. I imagine Finn’s downfall to brotherhood was messier, if that’s even possible. There’s no need to be embarrassed. You always said he was like Superman…and I guess a younger you tried to be his Lois Lane.
Sorry. Seriously sweetie, we’ve all had crushes we shouldn’t have. This is just a part of your history with Finn. It might be a little embarrassing, but you still have it to remember him by…even if I know for a fact we both prefer seeing your real look of love. Being idolized is nice, but being loved by the amazing Kurt Hummel is a gift.
Now about this costume..Dalton Uniforms tight? Or those sinful skintight jeans you wore all of 5 minutes on our honeymoon tight? Oh gosh, who am I kidding, it doesn’t even matter. I’ve been hard since I saw your legs in those delicious shorts anyway.